Apostrophe

How could I ever be so stupid to think he might actually like me. ME of all people. Now I've screwed up our chances of being together and our friendship. The one person i could tell anything to. How did this happen? Why did this happen to me? It's not like you could ever feel this way anyway. Your just someone in my mind who isn't even real. Ugh, how could I ever think it would have worked anyway. Now listen to me, I'm talking to myself.